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Apr. 7th, 2012 | 02:35 pm

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meh, still not my best but here we go.

Feb. 9th, 2010 | 09:45 pm

you think you're the only one who's hurting
why, are you the only one with a heart
well look around you sir, we're all here too
see that we're right in the same place you are
oh don't you think you're just so deserving
always cutting to the front of the line
but we're in need too, can't you see us here
no, you can't see anything with those eyes
blame without shame, everything is a game
it's not right if it doesn't go your way
you'll take what you want and then you just leave
you're searching for something you'll never find
you're a fool boy, always trying to hide
so you can fill this void you've created
you're pleasing your mind with nothing but lies
but you can't go on like this forever
you think you're the only one who's hurting
but you're not the only one with a heart
look around you, sir, we are all here too
we just refuse to give up the fight

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my friend, i hate you.

Nov. 30th, 2009 | 02:21 pm

you listen here, you listen now
you always try to cut me down
say just one more thing, i dare you
one of these days you'll know your place
to you this is all that i am
a fuck up fuck up fuck up oh
do you really think you're a man
shut up shut up shut up, no
i've been through more than you could know
i bet it's more than you can show
you think i care who's done what now
well, shove it up your ass, i don't
to you this is all that i am
a fuck up fuck up fuck up, oh
do you really think you're a man
shut up shut up shut up, no
picking on the smaller person
no, it won't get you anywhere
do you feel so much bigger
well, i'm stronger than you would think

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Jun. 21st, 2009 | 03:48 am
mood: depressed

well it's a good thing you can't see past this mask
would you really want to see all of these tears?
all that i would give for you to notice me
i bet you don't even care
want me, need me, i'm screaming inside
these feelings are agony, this must be what death feels like
i'm reaching out for you, touch me and show me i'm alive
i'm calling out for you, i wish you could show me a sign..


i wish i felt as alive again :/. i don't even know what's been going on with me lately. i just don't know. i'm feeling the same way i did a while back, and it really sucks, because i thought i was okay again. i thought i was getting better. but i'm not. if it weren't for john tonight, i probably would be the biggest mess right now. i love him to death, i swear. i don't know.. i hope things get better. i really need for everything to be better..
or maybe i'm just swinging again. yeah, i hope i'm just swinging..
idk. me and my fucked up mind :/. i just want to be happy. /end of story.

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a response to your bullshit.

May. 9th, 2009 | 09:00 pm

i'm trying so hard to keep the peace
but how can i do it when you're pushing at me
all these emotions with no words to describe
and you're forcing me to a ridiculous fight
don't say i walked away from you
when you pushed me away from you
just because i said we're through
doesn't mean i never cared about you
the things i said i won't take back
the things you did were just as bad
i won't be the villain in your sick game
don't you dare go and slaughter my name
and don't say i walked away from you
when you pushed me away from you
just because i said we're through
doesn't mean i don't care about you
cause i never walked away from you
it was you that pushed me away from you
and maybe i said that we were through
but fuck you, i never lied to you

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May. 9th, 2009 | 08:48 pm

"so tell me now are you here to stay
or are you like them just trying to get away
i'll tell you now i'm no longer afraid
but this smile i wear, i'm afraid that it's fake
is it even worth everything that i give
when it all gets shoved in my face
and in the end no one really cares
only imaginary friends, but that's not the same
i wish i knew if you'll be here for me
when i'm covered in dirt and down on my knees
this life has been empty for a while you see
i just hope i can find a way back up somehow
but is it even worth all that i give
when it all gets shoved back in my face
and it seems that no one's really there
just me and an imagination, but that's not the same
so is it really worth all that i give
when you're going to shove it in my face
i already know you don't really care
and i have no imagination and this isn't fair"

"are you here to stay or are you going to leave
i won't make you be where you don't want to be
and i definately won't get down on my knees
if there's someone to please, that person is me
i'm done with the not good enoughs
i'm tired of the pain
if you think you're so perfect
then show me the way
but if you go right now, you're making a mistake
i might just be the one that got away"

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Hey hey, more lameness coming your way...

Mar. 9th, 2009 | 11:39 pm

#1:
"This heart shaped stone feels so cold
Where is this last place it called home
This path is sick with poor lost souls
I just want something to call my own"

#2:
"Oh, my poor lost soul
How I miss you so
This broken heart is getting old
There's something missing
Why do you roam?
I'm begging you to please come home"

#3:
"I won't serve you, I'm not yours
My heart you broke, my soul you tore
The things you took I can't get back
I can't stand you and that's a fact
You don't practice what you preach
To me I think you're like a leech
One day you'll get your just deserves
Until that day you'll get my words..."


I still don't know why I bother posting these.. In my mind, they all suck. I'm still working on these three, but still... they can't get too much better, haa. oh my life i'm such a loser<3

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(July 26, 2008)

Mar. 9th, 2009 | 11:35 pm

The darkness creeps around me
There's nowhere to hide
I scream for you to find me
And I put up a fight
I want to be stronger
Cause I know we could win
So here I'll surrender
And let life begin

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more cheesey poems- yay for lameness!

Mar. 1st, 2009 | 12:47 am
mood: amused
music: a fine frenzy

i tried to think of the perfect words
but all that's here is the perfect blurr
why can't i think of what to say
i want your pain to go away
this really hurts when i see you cry
i never want to say goodbye
if you hang on i'll keep you strong
forever more we'll keep moving on

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idr when the fuck i wrote this but...

Feb. 28th, 2009 | 03:27 am
mood: awake
music: so i thought - flyleaf

"hello, goodbye
she leaves with a sigh
no hope, no dreams
he doesn't know why
we'll hang from the sky
and then he'll know why
we'll hang from the sky
without a goodbye."


wtf is with my emo ass poems?
i have some fucking issues, haa<3

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